Until my Grace Awakening, I had never experienced the diminishing of my desire to sin, my addictions, as my churches said I should. It was always a struggle. The desire for this or that addicted behavior never went away – never got less powerful. After Grace, they are gone or well on their way to being gone. I now know why.
Addictions are our way to have some control of our feelings/emotions. In the non-Grace life (as most Christians live), there is so much emotional pain from fear of God, self-loathing and sense of personal failure that we desire escape. Addictions are what we turn to for this purpose, whether it’s shopping or pornography or over-eating or over-working or video games – the list is endless.
When Grace becomes True to you, and the peace and joy (Fruit of the Spirit, remember?) comes in, we would rather experience this Fruit un-diluted by addictions. We find that they “ruin our good time” of Grace by indulging in addictions. This is real. I’m living it. If you read more of my blog, you would know I’m honest about these things and I can be trusted as I report this to you.
Whether you actively engage in your addictions, if you still strongly desire them, you haven’t yet full experienced God’s Grace. Never fear. You’re entirely forgiven. But you’re missing the party. And what a party it is.